hais. i dunno what to do... every time i make a decision, someone comes along n makes me waver. n i start frm square one all over again. it's getting tiring... hais. haha. at first it was what cca to join aft quitting band. like it was a foregone thg tt i WAS gonna quit band. THEN... hais. i didnt noe ppl wld react like this! cos yunqi said if we quit, she wld have only 5 ppl left in her section... n tt's like nt enough.. hais. then she was qt upset... haha then she said tt if we did decide to quit band in e end she wun hate us... haiyo. like i'll have face to see her aft tt... haha. hais. then also rite, if i quit i'd have less contact with val n joyce... cos we meet mostly thru band rite... hais. seems like i'll b letting ppl down, n giving so many thgs up if i quit band... bt if i dun try smth new, how will i ever noe?? hais. i dunno lah.
haha.. super anti climax agn.. i keep forgetting e 1st pg is e results! den i key in e stuff n go, 'huh? oh. ok.' haha.. dey shld haf some curtains opening or smth.. i dunno.. create suspense! :p haha.. kk, it'll b a BIT weird lah hor... haha.. anw yay!! when sch starts gt more ppl in nj.. ^_^ hmms.. went for e mus'art concert yest.. they were qt good! now i feel inferior... haha... anw i was late, den weixian n daryl had to run out to find me cos i have a really great sense of direction.. den i was standing at e road, n dey ran past me, going 'fatimah, fatimah! eh where is fatimah? aiyo it's too dark here lah..' wadeva!!! hahaha... anw i was only 10 mins late.. like val said.. it's a record! :p hais k must try nt to be late for concerts nxt time.. TRY.. :p
yay!! went ice skating today aft band... hahaha i think there's smth in e ice... me n sm r addicted to e smell... :p haha... anw we went kallang, n nt many ppl dere, bt most of them r hockey skaters... den zip zip zip ard e ice.. so intimidating n irritating... haha... bt den e gd thg is i dun haf to avoid them; they shld b gd enuf to swerve ard me. :D except for this stupid rooster boy. i was juz skating normally, n he was standing in e middle of e rd. so of COURSE i smashed into him.. wa bt he was v solid, it was like walking into a pillar.. :p hmms.. today band was nt bad lahs. it was s'posed to start at 10, den we found out tt e old man juz woke up at 10... haha... den he arr at like 1230, disturbing our lunch... den marcus was like 'take ur time.. he made us wait for so long, now it's his turn!' haha dey're all crazy lahs... anw pradeep!! brown SKIRTS indeed..... hahahha... genius pradeep had a bet with me, tt ernst rohm(e guy who was killed on e night of e long knives) was e leader of e brown SKIRTS. yeah. he insisted that they wore SKIRTS... hahaha... anw. i'm waiting for my chocolate cinnamon bun!! haha... ^_^
when i stand at the judgment seat of Christ and He shows me His plan for me; the plan of my life as it might have been had He had His way, and i see how i blocked Him here and i checked Him there and i would not yield my will, shall i see grief in my Saviour's eyes; grief though He loves me still?
oh, He'd have me rich, and i stand there poor, stripped of all but His grace, while my memory runs like a hunted thing down the paths i can't retrace. then my desolate heart will well-nigh break with tears that i cannot shed. i'll cover my face with my empty hands and bow my uncrowned head.
no. Lord of the years that are left to me i yield them to Thy hand. take me, make me, mould me to the pattern Thou hast planned.
-alexander maclaren (1826-1910)
hais. i felt... i dunno, when i read this. cos like i think i'm also like that? like it's juz so hard nt to do only wad u like, n to leave everything to God. cos i'm weak n fallible. hais. but i can only try. aiyo i sound so melancholic. :p
hahaha... heys, i'm [b]never[/b] mean, [b]never[/b] violent, and [b]never[/b] sarcastic... how can they say this?? break my fragile heart... (n yes i HAVE a heart! haha... :p) hehe learning frm our beloved fifi :P [b]ehs come back soon!! [/b]still gotta plan ur wedding... haha... oh yah n i can exchange tips with SOMEONE for e wedding invites, since he has alr gotten his ready liaos! hahaha... :P
xintian, this is what the foods you eat say about you: You sincerely believe that everything around you is beautiful, even though other people may not notice. You are a determined person and set high goals for your life.
You are always wilful and most of the time, you are a stubborn person. But you love to work and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.
You love the good life. You live extravagantly and like everything around you to be beautifully crafted. You are optimistic, have an excellent sense of humor and enjoy having your friends around you.
You are soft-minded. You find it's too hard to say "No" to others, especially when you are pushed. Quite often, you are taken advantage of because of your soft-minded nature.
hahaha... it's 5 in e morning n i'm being told tt i'm er, stubborn, wilful n easily pushed ard? :P aiyo... anw. yup. shall go have breakfast nw... :p
